Swarming Thoughts..

Thoughts rush in like a swarm of bees,

stinging every part of my brain!

it pains, it aches, it itches like hell,

it makes me go insane!!

I go berserk in frenzy

I try to shoo them away

but they make a point, loud and clear,

that they are here to stay!

they prick all over mercilessly,

their needles, deep down my brain,

no matter how much i shake my head,

It's always done in vain..

i fight but i finally concede,

to overpowering cluster of thoughts

I pull and twist and twirl my hair,

until they are in knots..

I give up d battle, and lose myself

to the perennial stream in mind,

Like a still corpse i lie in bed,

a bed which has always been kind..

Kind enough to be an escape

from feelings grim and wild,

Kind enough to hug me tight,

when i feel like a lost child..

Numb to core, inside and out

i accept the hysterical phase,

as it passes gradually,

the fog lifts off my face... 

It lies..in the eyes..

There are times when u r grieved,

and you do not want to show,

you stick a forced smile and then,

just hope those thoughts would go...

But when your lips smile,

your heart still cries...

you think u can betray your woes,

but those traitor eyes...

Those two, your best friends at times,

become your worst enemies,

when tears roll out unthoughtfully,

and you want them to cease...

You want to sit aloof,

and calm the storm inside..

but everytime those watery eyes,

are there to raise a tide...

Whenever you are trapped,

in the tornado of tears,

Just close your eyes and let them run,

and sweep away your fears...

Cry to celebrate sorrow,

like you laugh to celebrate joy...

Life is a roller coaster ride,

when you go down, you must enjoy!!

Coz ups come only after downs,

the essence lies in the ecstacy,

the shouts, the cries, the truths, the lies...

And the whole emotional sea...

So when your eyes are filled with tears,

Welcome them with a smile,

You'll see, the'll not bore you for long..

Just take care of them for a while..

Prayer..

She closed her eyes to celebrate the silence...
These moments were rare,
'Dear God', she whispered,
and made a little prayer

"Let me not be swayed away
by thoughts that flow forever,
Let me stand stiff and straight
in winds of harsh weather

let me make some sense of the
world that lives around me
let me know the secrets of the
facts that astound me

let me feel the interface
between dream and reality,
let me play between the two,
and prove their vitality

let me keep true faith in you
and believe in your existence
let me see the rights and wrongs
and let me see the difference

let me see there is a wall

though it is transparent
and the world beyond it is imaginary
though that is not apparent

let me be independent of thought
and make ideal decisions
let me know my need in world
so i realize my missions"

'Thank you God' she said at last, and bowed down her head..
I hope he will pay heed to, whatever she said...

Emptiness..

Just sitting there, as if lifeless,
She wonders in her room,
No thoughts pass by her mind,
All lost in vacuum...

She sometimes asks herself-
"Am I hollow??"
"What's that stuck in my throat ,
that I can't swallow?"

She probes into her life and what does she find?
Some big voids, which seem small,
She gets some cement, some plaster too,
She needs to fill them all!!!

I wish you didn't surrender..

You run , u try to escape,
so hard u try, in vain :(
as soon as u look back,
u find them again...

You try to hide somewhere,
behind the broken fence,
but they look straight at u,
U've got no defense..

You run to save ur life,
u run real fast ..
with doubts in ur mind
"For how long will u last ?"

You get in side a tunnel,
so dark u lose ur way
a hand holds ur hand and walks
till u c the first ray...

As soon as u see light,
their thoughts creep in ur mind,
u start running again,
and leave the hand behind.

You pant! You puff!
its such a bad weather,
u turn around and c them
grinning at u together..

You are tired,
u sit down
they all surround u..
there's nothing u can do now,
just look around u...

You are beaten, u break
unheard go all ur cries..
they shatter ur existence,
tears drain ur eyes..

I wish u never ran,
i wish u stood still,
i wish u fought with them
against ur will !

I wish u never left
the hand that was so tender
it would have led u right
i wish u didn't surrender...